[ Which is... also not a lie, since he doesn't feel like doing much of anything at all. But if only so to prove a point, he at least hoists himself up to a sitting position, still not leaving the small comfort of his bed. ]
I have eaten enough. [ Which is not saying a lot, considering this is the kid who would sometimes have an apple for lunch even when he was himself, so maybe take that information with a grain of salt. ] Lupin-san often brings me something to eat. Others have, as well.
[That is good. Akira doesn't have much food to offer, certainly nothing hot, so he's glad someone has been trying to feed Akechi.
He wants to ask Akechi about the woods, because he's curious more than anything right now. But he isn't sure he should while Akechi is in this condition. On one hand, he might get honest answers if Akechi doesn't care enough to lie. On the other hand... that feels out of bounds, even for a heart-changing Phantom Thief.
He'd rather hear this how Akechi wants him to hear it, as backwards as that seems.]
[ But if he waits for the way Akechi would normally want to tell him, all he's going to hear are lies, or at least half concealed truths. That really is a backwards thought, but it works for him. ]
I don't. [ It's a quick, simple answer, and he considers leaving it at that, but then decides to add: ] I was unharmed, and I feel no pain whatsoever. I have never been better.
[ And isn't that the truth? Feeling nothing at all, he thinks, is much preferable to constant emotional turmoil. ]
[It's a very depressing thought. To feel nothing is preferable to anything Akechi has ever felt in his life? Does he really have no moments of happiness, or even contentment, to hold on to?
Based on what he said in Shido's palace, maybe he really doesn't.
And yet again, while Akira would normally feel distress at that idea, all he can feel now is... nothing, really. So Akechi thinks he can never feel better than nothing. How does that affect Akira?]
That's unfortunate. [It's dispassionate, indifferent. The response of someone who knows in theory that it's bad, but that's all.]
[ Even in his current condition, Akechi can tell there's something very lackluster about Akira's reply; quiet and barely expressive though he may be, he was never indifferent, and his answers were always earnest, even it was something as inane as telling a mere acquaintance how sleepy he was upon an early morning meeting in the train platforms. But this? It barely sounds like he means it.
Ah, well. It's not Akechi cares, anyway. ]
You don't sound so bothered. [ He brings it up, anyway, more out of instinct than any real want for conversation. ] I don't need meaningless words of comfort.
...Sorry. It's hard for me to feel much right now, too.
[Well, at least he knows that this missed communication won't bother either of them too much, at least for as long as this lasts. It wouldn't be a comforting thought, normally, and isn't now, but it's also not as upsetting a thought as it should be.]
[ Is he talking about how quiet Akira normally is? Maybe. Is this also about the secrets he keeps, the distance, and how he doesn't quite treat him like a member of the team, even though, for all intents and purposes, that's what they are? Very likely so.
But does Akechi actually care about it? Not at the moment, no. He's just going through the motions and making conversation-- and the problem with that is that he doesn't care to be pleasant, either. ]
[Akira actually pauses at that, reconsidering. Akechi thinks he hardly ever says anything? Well, that's true enough, in a literal sense - he prefers listening to talking himself. But is that all Akechi means by that?
Akira knows... he didn't treat Akechi quite like the rest. And that was because Akechi wasn't like the rest; more of an enemy or a rival, than a friend. But if he'd treated him more like a friend, maybe things would have turned out differently?
It's purely a hypothetical question, and not at all an emotional one at the moment, so he doesn't dwell on it.]
[ Hah, yet another empty promise, with no real meaning, no real feeling; even as he is right now, Akechi can pick up on the clues.
He also picks up on how Akira says it's hard to feel anything right now, and he briefly wonders if his venture into the woods yielded similar results to Akechi's-- the loss of all emotion, that is. It's hard to tell, with someone who's already so hard to read on a regular basis. ]
If you wish. [ Because, really, whether he tries hard or not, it's all very inconsequential to Akechi right now. It doesn't change anything. ] But in that case, you might want to come back when it's not so hard for you to feel much. With the way you are right now, I can hardly believe it.
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[ Which is... also not a lie, since he doesn't feel like doing much of anything at all. But if only so to prove a point, he at least hoists himself up to a sitting position, still not leaving the small comfort of his bed. ]
I have eaten enough. [ Which is not saying a lot, considering this is the kid who would sometimes have an apple for lunch even when he was himself, so maybe take that information with a grain of salt. ] Lupin-san often brings me something to eat. Others have, as well.
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[That is good. Akira doesn't have much food to offer, certainly nothing hot, so he's glad someone has been trying to feed Akechi.
He wants to ask Akechi about the woods, because he's curious more than anything right now. But he isn't sure he should while Akechi is in this condition. On one hand, he might get honest answers if Akechi doesn't care enough to lie. On the other hand... that feels out of bounds, even for a heart-changing Phantom Thief.
He'd rather hear this how Akechi wants him to hear it, as backwards as that seems.]
Do you need anything else?
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I don't. [ It's a quick, simple answer, and he considers leaving it at that, but then decides to add: ] I was unharmed, and I feel no pain whatsoever. I have never been better.
[ And isn't that the truth? Feeling nothing at all, he thinks, is much preferable to constant emotional turmoil. ]
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[It's a very depressing thought. To feel nothing is preferable to anything Akechi has ever felt in his life? Does he really have no moments of happiness, or even contentment, to hold on to?
Based on what he said in Shido's palace, maybe he really doesn't.
And yet again, while Akira would normally feel distress at that idea, all he can feel now is... nothing, really. So Akechi thinks he can never feel better than nothing. How does that affect Akira?]
That's unfortunate. [It's dispassionate, indifferent. The response of someone who knows in theory that it's bad, but that's all.]
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Ah, well. It's not Akechi cares, anyway. ]
You don't sound so bothered. [ He brings it up, anyway, more out of instinct than any real want for conversation. ] I don't need meaningless words of comfort.
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[Well, at least he knows that this missed communication won't bother either of them too much, at least for as long as this lasts. It wouldn't be a comforting thought, normally, and isn't now, but it's also not as upsetting a thought as it should be.]
I'll say something more meaningful later.
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[ Is he talking about how quiet Akira normally is? Maybe. Is this also about the secrets he keeps, the distance, and how he doesn't quite treat him like a member of the team, even though, for all intents and purposes, that's what they are? Very likely so.
But does Akechi actually care about it? Not at the moment, no. He's just going through the motions and making conversation-- and the problem with that is that he doesn't care to be pleasant, either. ]
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Akira knows... he didn't treat Akechi quite like the rest. And that was because Akechi wasn't like the rest; more of an enemy or a rival, than a friend. But if he'd treated him more like a friend, maybe things would have turned out differently?
It's purely a hypothetical question, and not at all an emotional one at the moment, so he doesn't dwell on it.]
I'll do my best.
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He also picks up on how Akira says it's hard to feel anything right now, and he briefly wonders if his venture into the woods yielded similar results to Akechi's-- the loss of all emotion, that is. It's hard to tell, with someone who's already so hard to read on a regular basis. ]
If you wish. [ Because, really, whether he tries hard or not, it's all very inconsequential to Akechi right now. It doesn't change anything. ] But in that case, you might want to come back when it's not so hard for you to feel much. With the way you are right now, I can hardly believe it.
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But in the end, he can't really come up with anything. It's as Akechi says - right now, they're only spinning their wheels.
Finally, he nods, and steps back.]
Alright. We'll talk again, soon.
[And with that, he'll take his leave.]